JustADewd

I took your head and gently pulled it close to my chest so you could hear the sound of my heartbeat while the thunder rolled overhead. Maybe it was your smile, or the way you spoke, the way you laughed, your genuine, natural beauty that makes you haunt my dreams. Every time I wake up I wish I could go back. My dreams are always a happier place than the world I exist in. I can hold you close and weave my fingers through your hair to comfort you during the storms. We can laugh together and conquer any evils that may come our way. But in reality I'm still alone. The one thing I long for in life has escaped me since day one, blown away like sand

My mind was a mess, spinning into a dark abyss that I didn't see myself coming out of this time. I say this time because this has happened before. Around the age of fourteen I had entered a state of mind that I could only describe as "vacant". I didn't give much thought to anything. Family, friends, school, you name it, I didn't care. The initial reason that this happened was because I had faced my first official rejection in a manner that, I would have to say, was less than stellar. We are going to call this girl, well, Girl. Girl and I had endless chats on MySpace (when it was still relevant) and got along all too well. We stayed up night a

You are going to die so die alone. Let the cold chill you right down to your bone. Its fierce clutches seem to never let go. As death slowly approaches from a dark shadow. Let fear consume you as you see just how cruel the end can be.

Atop this burning mess you're here yelling in my head so clear To see that you would never come running back to me oh please run back to me. I can't see straight without you by my side I'm falling faster now don't leave. Don't leave me here alone when all I need is for you to take my hand so I can breathe.

You see, the way I work is different from everyone else. When a person comes along that shows remote interest in me I get infatuated with them. I couldn't tell you why, it just seems to happen. Granted the one that is currently causing me to think of this is absolutely beautiful, there's just a feeling in me that says I'm gonna hurt myself. Again. Countless times this has happened. My heart and my head get my hopes up. They fantasize. A light finally shines that the empty void where a heart should go is going to be filled, but that's never the case. The world just likes to shove my face into the concrete and relentlessly repeat the process un